lifelong addict refused proper pain treatment because he might get addicted

Sounds kinda like a joke but it's all too true.Having a reference from a neurosurgeon counts for nothing in a Province so afraid of the word drug that they will probably try to wiki it out of existence.I thought that the 6-18 months they had me believe I had to wait was inhumane.Today i discovered that that is just the warm up to prepare you for the more than two year wait to come.At first I thought it was a mistake because I had been assured for the entire 15 month wait that 18 months was the maximum.I had heard that other pain doctors had two +year waits and felt kind of lucky that at least I wouldn't have to suffer that kind of indignity.When a doctor tells you something you can immediately assume that they are at best misguided or at worst outright lying.I don't know why this hit me so hard.I have been manipulated,lied to,set up,knocked down and given no respect and worst treatment.At no time in the almost five years I've been suffering with this destroyed spinal chord have I been given even effective pain medication.I was put on conflicting drugs that cancel each other out and given a 12 hour medication to last the whole day.I was forced to take as many as 20 double strength ibuprofen just to lessen the spasms that were the most unimaginable pain you can imagine.I went through several bottles of 500.At that time my family doctor was giving me 30 5mg.morphine for a month.He really thought he was stepping out doing that.To say that doctors in B.C. are terrified of the college is an understatement.Losing the right to prescribe is pretty much the ballgame for a family doctor.Specialists don't even prescribe because it's just too dangerous and they are the ones that deal with the real pain cases.That waiting lists are so long is testament to how under served we are in this province when it comes to pain.That many doctors won't even discuss pain medication shows just how scared they are.I haven't been posting as much because I was holding on to what I thought was the short end of a long rope.I actually thought I might get my life back.I'm pretty sure now that that isn't in the cards.It looks like someone has decided it's just a matter of time and they just won't deal with me at all.With what having constant pain has done to my overall health i tend to think they're right.It's a fight just to get up for the four hours I spend out of bed in a day.I'm being murdered as sure as if a gun was put to my head.This is the real consequences of drug addiction.People just ignore you to death.